As things heat up for the grand drug and alcohol party that I will not speak it’s name. As the wall of what was comes tumbling down and we explore what we can create from the remainder of the rubble. I wanted to speak today about the importance of speaking your truth, but in order to do that I need to know if your open for business?

Being open for business is not simply stating that this is the way things are and that is that! Being open for business is creating an awareness of when your thoughts and feeling are incongruent and having an awareness of your personal feelings and being able to freely express them with out fear.

Questioning your motives and the cost of your truth. Why are you editing your thoughts and question what your afraid of? What are you avoiding having to deal with by, not stating your feelings. More importantly what’s the pay off for editing? Removing the word “should” or “should not’s” from our vocabulary, should s works against self-acceptance and offer guilt instead. Replace those should s with “choose” or “will”. Be clear, direct and own your message by using I statements such as “I don’t agree with you”. Most of all do this with respect you simply don’t have to trample others feelings in order to express your own. People will be more open to receiving the message when spoken with the heart.

Addiction is frequently a symptom of not being able to speak your truth. Unresolved emotional trauma be they extreme or mild are not resolved they leave behind a slew of painful, unprocessed feelings in the unconscious. These feelings are never content to remain silent and instead clamour for release. When they express them selves openly and without disguise this activates the healing process, however, is so painful and potentially discombobulating that few people lack proper external support and self-understanding to dare undertake it.

So as we draw closer to the grand drug and alcohol party of which I can not speak it name I question what feeling are being unexpressed and I question who is really Open For Business? For that’s where you will find me this year standing and celebrating with those who are willing to use their voice, process their discombobulated feelings and are Open for Business.

If simple things like thoughts can change our reality. I can’t see why the planets can’t have some effect on us. Many females have their ‘monthly visitor’ in conduction with the full moon. Mercury is one of the planets that I often follow and for me it usually brings a nice neat set of challenges for me to over come. Mercury is the planet of communication and frequently I will have breakdowns of this type. Typically it comes in the form of spilling coffee on my laptop or a fight with a business partner that ends in a major disappointment.

What happens with Mercury, is that from our perspective here on earth. It appears to be traveling backwards. All the planets do this actually. With Mercury being so close and so small it happens more frequently approximately 3 times a year the recent event started on my Birthday the 18th of April Ugh!~ Happy Birthday

Because the little planet appears to be traveling backwards, often people will experience a period of feeling like, doing something over again. It brings out our old Shit so we can communicate about it. This time is a little different for me. it’s just plain crazy and this time it not me, Thank god! This time is actually not all bad, well not for me. Surprisingly, I find that many people are combing forward with their addictions and a desire not to be addicted anymore. I find myself playing a major supporting role.

So what Mercury is trying to teach me? Perhaps it’s not about me this time and rather, it’s about helping others communicate their pain. Following astrology may or may not actually be valid, although their are many skeptics. I consult astrology only to help me see things that I may have not been looking for. Often it has been the source of inspiration when looking to move forward in my life. So now I’m wondering what’s Mercury trying to teach you?

Last week, I published the TMI (Too Much Information) reated video, and this week, with the permission of Person X, I’m bringing you this week my TMI-rated FaceBook chat.

You see I have many outlets for which I have to provide content. It doesn’t take long before everything is viewed with the lens of “Hmmm can I publish this???”

Brandon Williams (Step 2) and I are working very hard giving birth to our shamelessly promoted PositiveLite.com which does go viral on December 1, 2009, World AIDS Day.

Person X 21 November at 21:47
LOL yes I got it poor puppet try walking away from the computer once in a while LOL

Brian Finch 21 November at 21:50
I went out for a little bit, and I’m about to turn it off.

Person X 21 November at 21:52
goo turn it off walk away from the desk LOL

Brian Finch 21 November at 21:56
it’s a laptop. Ever since I went wireless, it’s been all-downhill from there. Total ADD.

Person X 21 November at 21:57
LOL I know the feeling I even take mine with me to the washroom LOL

Brian Finch 21 November at 22:12
You know, as crazy as it gets, it’s rare I take it to the washroom. Probably cause with these meds I’m just quickly hopping on and off.

Person X 21 November at 22:14
hmm so a change in your meds. causing that is it….

Brian Finch 21 November at 22:19
it’s probably not as I haven’t varied anything lately. For me it’s kind of like eating, I do it quite quickly. But there have been a couple of times when I have. I think that’s when an intervention is order. For which I may be a candidate soon.

Person X 21 November at 22:36
hmmm intervention INTERVENTION LOL

Brian Finch 21 November at 22:41
Ok, so are you on the toilet now? just asking…:)

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A pot to a pot and a half of coffee a day just cannot be a good thing, even when it’s half regular and half decaf. In an effort to reduce my caffeine intake I started mixing the two.

However, ongoing and easily triggered anxiety attacks made me look at all avenues of reducing the feeling of waiting to go on stage to give a talk.

Then I clued into the fact that once a couple weeks ago I forgot to take the tiny dose of an antidpressant with sedative qualities I actually woke up at a decent time.

It was time to make some changes to stop being a d-list Judy Garland and I stopped all coffee (but some tea) and reduced the night time drug by half. My sleep was fucked, but I was up by 8 am. That was nice.

Last night prior to heading to bed to toss and turn for quite some time I watched my nightly dose of The Daily Show and they were doing a send up of one of the Republican senators grilling Sotomayor for the Supreme Court.

Apparently he ended up on this site, “Men who look like old lesbians” I laughed when I saw Al Frankin on there.

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