“You are a lover.  The larger part of you loves.  When you don’t love, you are not who you really are and there is a seperation that you can feel in your solar plexus that feels like hate or feels like anger.” – Abraham

Interesting:

I had a romantic situation arise this week that inspired an intense emotional reaction.  When presented with the opportunity, my first thought/feelings regarding it were very strong.

I began feeling what seemed like very negative emotion right away.  Something was telling me that this was not the direction I wanted to be going. I could easily feel that I was being guided toward a different decision.

The problem is at the time I just questioned  these thoughts/feelings, as opposed to welcoming them, and listening to the message they related wholeheartedly.

I felt I was being selfish and not who I really am, I felt full of fear and insecurity.

“That empty awful feeling that you call fear simply means, your thought is not in sync with who you are.” – Abraham

The truth is: I allowed this message – “Richard, you are not being yourself” – to fall on deaf ears and let those deaf ears provide a false sense of peace.

The person I am today knows when to say NO to what I was being offered by life – and for good reason.

Yesterday I was making a playlist for a friend and I had asked about including music from a certain artist.

He said:  “Whatever is in your heart, add!  Doubt means don’t.”

And I thought…

OMG!  I knew that.

Why didn’t I listen to my own doubts about this romantic situation this week?  They were so loud and clear!  But I fought them.  I thought it was me being out of the vortex of my well being.  It was my own inner guidance system and it was saying: “RUN!”

“Negative emotion means you have departed from who you are.” – Abraham

I hadn’t experienced this much prolonged activity outside of my vortex in recent memory.  I could have easily listened.  Made other plans for a time when they felt right.  Instead I pushed myself and in the direction of that which I do not want.

In a text message from my beautiful sister, Allysyn, this morning, she asked: “How are you feeling through all this?”

I honestly replied: “Doing well.  The hot embarrassed feeling has almost entirely left me.  I have learned that next time my body, mind, soul  are giving me a direction, I will directly succumb to its guidance.  I do feel free knowing that something or someone has been experienced that brought a lot of life giving contrast – gave birth to huge desire – and will never quite happen that way again.”

“Ride your own rocket into the vortex and imagine your own resolutions that your life experience has caused you to launch.” – Abraham