I have a confession to make: I have been a slave to my own mind.
There are parts of me holding on to the same old story and I don`t know why. Even at times when I think that there are not.
Example:
There is this boy I was getting ready to meet. He and I had been talking together for some time. Now we had arrangements to see each other. A visit to my sister`s house – close to his – to meet my newly adopted niece provided a handy opportunity.
As the date came closer, I began to identify negative emotion I was feeling when I thought about meeting him. Truthfully I had anticipated this contrast. But, I promised myself, this time in the spirit of the law of attraction I would not give him my laundry list of self-hating deprecation.
I wanted to him to meet the real me. But every time we talked I was obsessively compelled to spit it out all the reasons I wasn’t worth it.
It’s not necessary for you to exacerbate your contrast with struggle in order to get it into a higher place. It is not necessary to suffer in order to give birth to desire. But when you have suffered and you have given birth to desire, so what? You’ve got a desire. Turn your attention to the desire. Think about where you’re going and never mind where you’ve been. Don’t spend any more time justifying any of that stuff -Abraham
Over dinner with a friend I began to understand this: Yes, I have a past. In it I used to tell myself lies and believe them. Here is my opportunity to step into what is real and going on. Be who I have already become. Get with that program because that is where the joy is at. This is where my alignment lies and there is big beautiful proof of it everywhere I look.
And sometimes that is directly at myself in the mirror and I say out loud ” I love you, Richard. I really do.”
